I feel like I'm playing God. To actually care about how other people feel, to be a mentor for my friends; give them helpful advice. Because I don't want people to be lost into an unknown path of unknown possibilities. I'm scared of their possible consequences. I want to be there for them, to help them out. You know about my last post of worrying about little things and it will turn into the drastic result? Well, that leads to this. I felt like I need to help others. If my friends turned out not okay, then I would be worried. I would lose it. I could not handle any more suffering. If I did, then I don't know how I do it.
This kind of reminds me of Doctor Who, how he would always save people's lives by solving the problems; only it will be like stopping aliens and stuff. Well, I worry about their lives. I want to solve their problems even though I know I can't. Today I was crying because I was feeling helpless. Because their lives are a mess and I'm doing everything I can to make their lives better. I know that I can't change where they live and have a wonderous mansion with their family again. But what I can do is to make special memories, like watching Doctor Who, go to the Homecoming Dance, goof off, be wacky, and have fun. We would also write stories together. I want them to know that I'm also struggling, that I'm not perfect. But I cannot talk about it because I'm still confused with my past. When it's finally clear to me, I'll tell. Everyone struggles and you cannot believe that their success leads them to their best possible careers. Even famous people have struggles. They are not perfect, but they know their weakness and their strenghts and made the best out of it.
If everyone cares for other people's lives, would we become heroes? Would we actually save their lives? Would we make an impact? That is the most difficult question for me to answer. Please leave a comment on what you're thinking. I'm seeking for results. I need help.
Just by wanting to help and trying to make a difference makes you a hero. I don't think one person can save a life. Something my mother always told me was that "You can't change a person, only God can. The best you can do is make a positive influence on their lives.
ReplyDeletePeople are making an impact every day. By being there. By listening.
I know it kills you when you see something wrong, and you know you can't do anything about it. So you put your best foot forward and hope for the best.
Sorry that was long-winded, but i hope it helped. :)
i've been told this by so many people, and i think it's going to help u now.
ReplyDelete"You can't help other people until you help yourself." So you need to solve your problems and then u can handle other peoples