Senior Life

Today is semesters, and it's my last first year of school in high school. Some of my classmates are graduating early, and I'm really saddened by this because I've known them since middle school. I wish that I would be able to be friends with them. It saddens me that I barley have bff's in my own grade.

Whenever I see my former teachers, I would think, what are their names? When did I know them? What did they teach? I would ask that every single time. A lot of students could name their teachers from preschool to present. But I could not remember any single one besides my 2nd grade teacher and my present teachers. It's really sad because I was a stuck up teacher's pet, and I barley know my teachers anymore. Is that a natural thing to do? Just to forget about your adolescence years just like that?

I could not believe that tomorrow would be the last day of school for Christmas Break and I only have 5 months of my senior life left. And I don't know what to sign up for in my schedule that I would really love! I just signed up for pointless things like Culinary Arts and Socialology. I also have 2 choir classes, study hall, orchestra, English IV, Financial Literacy, and Play Production. I should of signed up for physics, AP Pshycology, Anatomy, and pre-calculas. But I didn't. I didn't because I am so bad at math that I almost failed Algebra II and had to switch teachers. My senior life is pointless. I cannot wait until college because of the classes. I want to take some musically inclined classes and learn to conduct and learn to compose music more effectivly.

About my last blog... I understand that people can't help themselves to what they become and how they are depressed about it. Like some had family members that died. Some have a disorder and doesn't have the money to treat it. Some have been through divorced, some have experianced their pets dying, and some have been through some hurt of sexual abuse and any other type of abuse out there. And what you have experianced has an outcome in how you act in later life. All of that takes extraordinary healing and you need support whenever you can. But if you havn't been through that and decide to listen to what other harrasing bullies say, then you are ruining yourself by listening to them. Again, you are the critic. Do something positive to stop the name calling. And tell a councelor, parent, friend, mentor, and teacher. It's a fighting battle, but you can overcome it.

On Saturday, I hanged out in the bowling alley and was talking to someone about her point of view of how people should behave. She told me that it's all in your head, how you act, what are you thinking, and strive towards it. She told me that even those who had been bullied should not think about what other people say; don't dwell on it, think of something positive about yourself. YOU are the critic. Not some bimbo on the streets that called you names like slut, and whore. Sure, words can hurt, but they are not like the supreme judge that you depended on.You cannot dwell on what other people say, you are making yourself the target by looking all depressed and not tidying yourself up. You have the power to change other people's responsives. If somebody called you ugly, then wear nice clothes and take care of your hygine. If someone called you fat, then join a sport and meet new friends. Negative+Negative does not make a positive, so in that sence, do some positive enforcement in your life and it will have a positive outcome. Change your thoughts; they are the most powerful thing about your actions that you do. Do not mope on your past. A past doesn't matter as long as you've outcome your struggles. Everyone has been through some name-calling, and I mean everyone. But when you look at them today, you couldn't see it. They have been through being bullied and picked on, yet they are not scared for life. Don't mope on one single thing like it's the end of the world, because I can tell you- it will get a lot worse as you get older. So, forget about the drama, it's not a big deal, and fix it. And please- I'm not saying that you HAVE to do this and that in order for people to like you-rather, just join in an activity that you love to do and find some friends there. Then you can grow a lot by your personality and have a statement about what you've been through and how you persue it.

That's all for now~
Anna

December

Well, December finally hit, and so far, there is no snow in the ground. Last month was our driest November ever in recorded history of Sioux City. I don't know when it would snow, but if it kept on delaying, that means a huge snow storm in January-April. Don't want that to happen.

Only 8 more days until Madrical. My high school is performing Madrical in the Shrine Temple, which is the Masonic Headquarters in Sioux City. Coincidently, that's where my parents got the piano for free. Anyways, on December 9, I will be part of a Royal Court, the Royal Orchestra, and Lady-in-Waiting at the same time. Fun, right? Having to perform 18 pieces in one night?! Ah well. I did that last year, and that's what I get for signing up two choirs and Orchestra.

My grandma will come on Friday, along with my sister, and my parents! I can't wait! This will be my sister's and my grandma's first time ever seeing it. It will be exciting. Oh, and I forgot. I will be performing my skit. I cannot wait. I'm Hester the Ugly, and I took over the throne along with Mordric, although he's supposed to stink in the script. It will be fun.

On Saturday, all I do is serve tables and be Lady-in-Waiting. I won't have much fun as Friday night, but at least I get to sing.